I think a lot of people view missionaries like they do their pastors, they are "perfect" with "hearts of gold" who always place God first and read their Bible and have quiet time (which in my present state of 2 kids under the age of 2 1/2, what is quiet time?). So real quick, let me set these ideas straight... errrrrrrrr (imagine the buzzer on the game Operation). We are human just like everyone else. I personally struggle with reading my Bible every day, praying often, spending any time alone with Him (much less daily) amongst my usual human faults of pride, stubbornness, stress, worry, anxiety... (shall I continue?). J returned from the Meeting God in Baseball clinic in Hato Mayor with 20 AIM coaches several weeks ago. And from the stories I have heard, God was breaking barriers and moving with force with these men. Here in the DR, one often hears "oh they're not Christian because..." (fill it in- they drink alcohol, they wear make up, they are divorced, they work at a bar, they don't go to church...). These are those sad moments when I realize how many of our brothers and sisters on this island are still chained up. Chained to their former lives, chained to their previous sins, chained with the idea that they must earn and prove their faith. And ultimately, it frustrates me to think about how many people are turning away from the freedom and salvation Christ brings because they believe they aren't good enough. During our camp in Nagua this past March, one of the Dominicans who went with us told us that he didn't realize Christians could be like this (to which he was referring having fun). He didn't know Christians could laugh and joke and have a good time. For him it was all rules you have to follow. Isn't that heart breaking? Instead of this young man seeing and being told about the joy Christ brings into your life and the freedom He gives you from your former life and ALL your sins, he was bogged down with the rules and regulations. I have been re-reading Waking the Dead by John Eldredge (go out right now and buy it or borrow it... just find it) which speaks to this. Nowadays so many churches are focused on the rules and steps to becoming a Christian and improving your life that they skip the most important part- the heart. They skip the training of our hearts to be like Christ (which will ultimately display peace, love, kindness, grace). We've tried to boil down the "Christian life" to a series of steps to take, hoops to jump through, and when finished you will be a Christian. That's not what Christ modeled, talked about, or intended. We become more "Christian" as we grow closer in our relationship with Christ.
One of our many prayers on this island is to share with others the true nature of a Christian lifestyle. It's not about religion or what you can do, but your relationship with He who made you.
Just a few pics:
Ryann enjoying some tummy time.
In case you didn't know, Aubrey has actually started her own church services. Here she is preaching into her "microphone" with her Bible.
"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."
John 10:10